Conflicts in Life >.<

today is the last day for my second semester..yeah...

but still have finals to go... 4 subjects >> psychology, chemistry, calculus (T.T) and moral studies... duno which to study first... =/

i stayed up until 5am yesterday, err nope, today =x

juz to prepare the final draft for the last assignment that we need to write in class today... what a hard work... not very sure that all my points and articles are relevant or not...fan~

but anyway, completed ENGL101 dy~

no need to bother about writing essays anymore...

at least for the next 2 semesters... =D

went to watch Bolt in sunway pyramid today after class with shusen and his hubby, Christ, Andrew, Alfred, Ian and Alex

n i sit the couple seat for the first time XD but be clear that i am still single lor... =p

the movie was quite nice but a bit boring... they decided to watch 3D type..but not comfortable to me... =.= more prefer to watch the normal one la... hehe..

btw...janice is kinda frustrated to some people in her house these days...she dowan to tell me..sigh.. so i cant help much...

i always noe little about them.. i dun like... wish stay with them..then we can do revision together, play together n know each other even better.. i always feel like i am the outsider between them... =(

but if then...i think i will miss my home a lot...my papa, mama, qie qie, bin bin n liang liang...=]

*dilemma*

but actually no need to think much about dat as my mum will never allow me to do so...

too much money ar?? she will say... =/

maybe because too much tension and worry la.. i lose my appetite these few days... very upset.. very fan~...

nvm la..can lose weight like dat oso... some people keep telling me that i am fat!!

i wan to slim down...determined..!! haha...hope this time will work.. LOL

ok la..need to start study for my finals dy... byee ^^

人生， 烦。 爱情， 更烦。

当下的心情 又复杂的难以形容了
该怎么说呢 毫无头绪 唉~
我对自己说过的 我不希望再陷入爱情的泥沼里了
至少在这段时间里 我不要 也不愿意

今天 有个人当着我的面 很清楚地说出我从来不随便对别人说出的感受
我极少对别人剖白的
除非 是我觉得能听得懂我在说什么 又值得我信任的朋友
当然 这类角色 自然也少不了我那亲爱的 姐姐
为什么? 因为要向别人说出心底最大的忧虑 是需要勇气的
一方面 我觉得这样会对别人造成无谓的烦恼
另一方面 我也害怕 过后会不知该怎么面对 对方的看法
究竟要怎么做才可以不必在乎别人的想法 做回最单纯的自己呢
这么多年了 我还是不懂 无奈+无助~

那究竟那人今天说了什么啊
他说 看你的样子 就知道你一定没谈过恋爱 根本不懂什么是爱
哈哈 虽然他只说中了一半 可是还是让我觉得一针见血
这可是我内心深处最大的疑惑
本小姐不是没谈过恋爱的 而且还不止一次耶
只不过 的确 我连自己都怀疑自己到底懂不懂得什么叫 爱
其实 我是一个很容易被人追到的女生
因为我对所有个性好的人都好 又不会拒绝别人
所以就很容易答应别人的追求
到最后才发现原来对方根本就不适合自己
结果咧 提分手的人往往都是我 不可避免的 就伤害了他们
内疚 久久无法从释怀
对不起 是我唯一能说的

问世间 情为何物
这么烦的事情 我根本不想再去思考了
就让我平平静静的过日子吧
该来的缘份 我了解 挡也挡不了 只希望不要在再历史重演了

有时 我也会想
不知待何时 我才能够真正的爱上一个人呢
我也希望 当我
无助的时候 有个可以依靠的肩膀
快乐的时候 有人可以一起分享我的快乐 陪我笑
发呆的时候 有人可以静静的陪我一起想事情 而不觉得寂寞
任性的时候 有人可以包容我的一切 处处为我设想

爱情
那原本 应该是件美好的事啊
为什么 到我身上 就变了个样呢 烦~

人的一生中 为啥得烦这么多事
唉。

I wanna be free...

guess what have i done for the whole today......

nothing...haha is nothing...but watch movie and mapling....

what a relax day~...

actually...not at all... gosh...i was thinking about my assignments when i was slacking...i dun like... i want a proper holidays!!!

3 more weeks... then i am free~~ i wan to fly like a bird in the sky... i wan to swim like a fish in the ocean probably with a cute dolphin...haha...how nice it could be... XD day-dream again... =.=

well i watched Mama Mia this afternoon...this movie was highly recommended by my friend >> Janice...thx to her...this show is really awesome!! haha...must watch it at least once within ur lifetime... @_@v

then i immediately downloaded all its soundtracks.... XD

here is the list:

1. Mama Mia

2. Dancing Queen

3. I have a dream

4. Money money money

5. Honey Honey

6. Chiquitita

7. Our last summer

8. Lay all your love on me

9. Super Trouper

10. Gimme! gimme! gimme!

11. Voulez-vous

12. SOS

13. Does your mother know

14. The winner takes it all

15. When all is said and done

16. Slipping through my fingers

17. I Do I Do I Do I Do I Do

18. Waterloo

19. Take a chance on me

20. Thank you for the music

Mama Mia! Here i go again!! XD

ok.......back to reality...tomorow is MONDAY (>.<) 8am class!!

i dun feel like going to class le... =(

hmmm....i think i have become more and more lazy these days...

it is almost the end of the year la....and my college sooooo rarely got holidays and there are tonnes of works to do... unlike my sis's college...extremely free..seldom see her doing assignments or whatever works that a typical college student should be suffering from... and now..after her last upcoming paper on this wednesday... she will be having a whole 2 months holidays!! argh...not fair!!!

but nobody can help me....sigh...

so now i better get some preparations for my assignments...

not good to procastinate right? hehe

hope to sleep early today...

juz a piece of advice...it is best to have deep sleep which is at the first stage of sleep [early night] becos it is the only time that your brain could really rest and not working... if you sleep very late at night [after 3am] then it is REM(random eye movement) sleep...in which your brain are still working even when u are sleeping...dat's how dreams come along at the last stage of sleep..could you imagine if u keep sleeping late for several nights in a row...your brain are not getting rest for so long... =s

anyway i learnt it from psychology class...so nowadays i sleep quite early...trying hard to...=x

okiee have to go ler...tataz~ ^^

cRazy mAths m!d-Term zzZ

★hooray~~~my calculus test is over finally!!!

haha...why i am so happy? not only becos the tension has gone..but also...i totally dunno how to do..muahahahahaha.....seriously...i cant get proper answers for more than half of those crazy questions...XD

hehe...nvm la...i gave up this subject long long time ago...i din worry about failing this course...juz dat i have to retake it next semester...>.<

haiyorrrrrr...even i retake i think i oso duno how to do la......sigh...wasting money summore..my dad was so unbelievable when i told him dat i might have to retake the course... =(

sob...i oso not willing to do dat mar...who ask me so "slow" in maths wor...

calculus II is so complicated u know..not suit me at all... =x

anyway...now is time to have fun la....

after so many days of "hard work" in my maths' theorem and formulas...[which is useless after all]

=.=''

haiz...my whole nice saturday morning has wasted at college today...i got up at 5am this morning juz to revise the stupid maths...then drove to college for Psychology class replacement...then is the math test lor...

after dat i went to "pick up rubbish" at a park near my college!! @_@

haha...dun get frightened la..i did dat for the moral group project which we have to do 10 hours of community service...

our group members dragged so long until now we have not enough time to make a proper plan...so now we juz pretend that we help clean up the compound of the housing area in SS15 for 5 hours lor...

*whisper* but actually we juz did for around 1 hour and took pictures as evidences...XD

i think is okay la...at least we really did clean up the area le.... hehe ^_^v

ok la... i wan to enjoy the rest of the time...do vatever i want....hoho...

but i cant relax totally oso..becos there are "monsters" following me

>> 2 assignments and 2 upcoming tests lor...sigh sigh.... =s

have a nice day to me and you~~ o(^x^)o

byeee!!

a whole new world >> new self << aloha~

honestly, this is my first blog... XD

last time i have no idea to have a blog and record all the laugh and cry that happen in my daily lives.. hmm..then why i start blogging? haha.. becos i saw other ppl's blog so awesome and beautiful... hehe..so i wish to have one myself oso...but i usually duno vat to write... =/

today is a boring day again..have class in the morning..and then mapling in the aftenoon haha.. now..have to study Calculus [the most complicated subject in my life!!] for mid-term exam that will be held the day after tomorrow... i scored badly in all my previous tests... gonna die dy..sob..=( very hard to study le...so many..i dun understand... n i very lazy now =x

err juz a brief intro to myself la...i am 18 this year...my birthday is on march...pisces baby oh....hehe.. i like to daydream...or technically is called 放空 la...dat means nothing going on in my mind..it stays blank.. although i am "daydreaming"...haha.. i noe i am talking nonsence..=]

i like to read fantasy and romantic story books...especially my fav Harry Potter!! to believe to have Hogwart in this world is some kind of happiness oso...o(^0^)o if u believe there is, there will be~

also, i like all sort of movies....EXCEPT horror and bloody movies...never ever ask me to go for dat...i hate cruel ppl T.T i started to have phobia towards wax since the moment i was misleaded by duno who to watch "The House of Wax"..... omg....bloody hell....y there is this kind of crazy ppl in the world.....i lovee peace and kindness....

cruel and unpassionate ppl, plz stay far far away from me!

listen to music and songs is my life...i used to study with my media player on....any nice songs and melodies will favor me... i listen to mandarin, cantonese, J-pop, K-pop and oldies...

tell u..must listen to Jam Xiao's songs...no matter u noe him or not...u can go to YouTube to search for his video clips.....especially his version of "i'll be there for you" sang by Bon Jovi.. u sure will fall in love to him!! 萧敬腾 Jam Xiao rocks!! haha..

there is another korean group singer too..i like..hehe *+*TVXQ*+* they are cute~~ haha =D

okie..its late now..my calculus....=( sigh.. wish me luck in my exam...plsss

anyway..never give up...gambateh!!

all the best to u too o(^-^)o

love life and enjoy life anyway u like haha